Summer in the city
Tonight, in 70 degree weather, we went to Tasty Twist, our local ice cream hangout with the neighbors. They all walked, I drove (can’t walk that distance in the evening, when I’d already had some contractions and pains tonight). But sitting there, eating ice cream outside, in a dress and sandals, for goodness sake, as March goes out like a lamb, I was reminded of the soft and beautiful day I walked my dog, and later gave birth to my baby, three years ago.
I bought a shirt/dress pattern online tonight, from Hot Patterns, one of my favorite sewing pattern designers. Trudy said she’d send me some instructions for alterations to this to button all the way down the front, so I can use it to nurse the baby in. I have another vintage shirt dress pattern from the 70s that will also become part of the summer nursing dress wardrobe.
Tonight reminded me how much I love this time of year, softening into spring, playing outside. It’s going to be a beautiful summer – new baby, summer garden, playing with my Peanut.
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I need to savor this pregnancy. I’m excited about the new baby, about his birth, about caring for him (and caring for two) but I’m feeling like I’m rushing this whole thing and I need to slow down. This is surely my last pregnancy (said that last time, but didn’t believe it) given my health and my age. And our supreme luck with this one. So I need to savor.
Spring is here. I love spring. I love watching this body blossom and care for this new child. I love feeling a baby kicking again. I’m tolerating the backaches, the hip joint freezes and the headaches. I’m used to the injections. It’s all good. I’m learning, slowly, to give up the feeling (fueled mainly by watching posts and tweets from colleagues) that I need to get it all done AND be superwoman. I’m 40. Pregnant. Partner in my firm. Working my tail off to build business. Trying to do volunteer work for three other organizations. Mother of a busy toddler/preschooler. But strangely I’m not that stressed. I know I have much to do, but I’m taking it one day at a time.
Tonight’s self care is a nice moisturizing foot cream, some socks, and a magazine or two. Tomorrow’s may well be some sewing. Or at least cutting or tracing.
I must savor these moments. I can feel him now, kicking and rolling his little feet against my belly. Will I remember this feeling? I must surely try. Savor.
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This week, temps in the mid 70s! So I guess it’s time to bring up the boxes of spring and summer maternity wear from the basement now! Wheee!
I have had some disturbing dreams – not scary, but rather, just disquieting. Signaling that I know my life is turning towards baby and home and less towards work and community. Not MY specific work or community, mind you, but other people’s – that judging myself against others thing again.
I want to turn inward now. Focus on home and family. Nesting? not quite, but maybe.
My little peanut turned three yesterday. It was such a terrific weekend – we started with her birthday photos on Friday afternoon in a cute eyelet sundress with tulips. It continued on Saturday with Daddy and Eyrin day. And sunday we planted seedlings. She woke to presents on the dining room table, had waffles, and opened her gifts with Grandma and Grandpa on Skype. Then, later, we had her birthday party at the bounce arena, with her (and mainly, my) friends and all their kids. Lovely! We finished with a ‘candle baf’ (candlelight bath) and read a new book to bed.
It was such an enjoyable weekend. Yes, there were toddler moments, of course. But by and large, it was perfect.
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Spring has sprung, and what a welcome event for all of us here. I’ve worn my spring green poncho, my vintage Aigner trench (still overlaps about 5″!) my babywearing fleece jacket, lots and lots of days of ballet flats, and, next weekend, spring outfits! Yes, even maternity ones!
Coats get shed by lunch, I’ve been walking the dog every afternoon about 2ish, when the warmth has heated up. Though I’ve had to cut my distance down to just the 1/2 mile loop, as when I do long ones, I have discomforting contractions.
I’m feeling a slow, slight turn inwards. Last night started feeling sad about this pregnancy being on the downhill slope to conclusion, knowing full well this has to be the last one for me. Pregnancy is so joyful – there’s a real live baby in there! And it’s so short. I have to, want to, may find it hard to remember what it feels like to have a baby kicking inside my belly. And, yet, I can see the endgame in this one whereas I could never do it with E’s pregnancy (didn’t know and was too scared I’d lose her). So I know what is coming, and I’m excited, finding myself focusing on life with new baby, rather than relishing THIS time with this one.
I’m also preparing my life, and my home for a new baby. Reading books to Eyrin about new siblings. Preparing the nursery. Preparing at work. Getting things done at home. This is going to be such a joyous time!
Filed under Everyday Life | Comment (0)What I want to leave behind, and 3 lists
Spring. I want to shed this skin, shed winter’s grime, leave problems behind, start new, every day, sow seeds of future growth every day. I got this idea from a blog. Here’s three lists
What I like
- sunshine
- my baby (toddler)
- making things
- helping people
- making more things
- visual inspiration
- cooking
- gardening
- sewing
- knitting
- reading to my daughter
- volunteering
- bicycling
- sailing
What I don’t like
- long, endless projects
- difficult people
- people who don’t own up to their responsibilities
- people who want to stay put and complain about it
- doing the same thing over and over
- staying put
- staying indoors
- tantrums
- stressful days
- feeling not rich
What I’m good t
- meeting new people
- sewing
- making things
- marketing
- web deveopment
- design
- bigger thinking
- helping people
- volunteering, organizing and leading
- being a mother
- being a friend
So, now where does this lead me? Dunno. I want to make more money. I’m not sure I can do it in my current situation. Why? Too much overhead, not enough direct productivity. I could make more on my own. But I don’t really know that I want to.
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Today it looks a bit like spring – and the long range forecast says temps in the 40s weekend and next week. Wheee! (when 43 is spring, you know it’s the end of a Michigan winter!)
Our problem client did not respect the letter’s stipulated deadlines, and our attorney’s response is “too bad, they had four days to do so” and told us to not do anything until she reviews THEIR letter and our documents. She positioned us well with the first letter, and we are in a strong spot. I’m hoping for a quick resolution. Really, just want them – and their lack of any concrete understanding of their situation – to go away.
I’m focusing on some GREAT clients today – the ones that get it. And there are at least a half dozen on my plate to respond to, not to mention the successful launch of our new entrepreneur initiative. Life feels pretty darn good right now. Out with the old, in with the new! A friend and neighbor let me borrow some clothes, too, and these are, truly, the Best Black Pants Ever as she termed them. So I’m stylin’ AND channeling good business vibes.
I believe this legal situation will resolve itself quickly and in our favor. I believe we have a bunch of great clients – and projects – that will fuel some early spring growth. I feel that our prospect efforts are beginning to pay off, and look forward to nudging that ahead with even more networking and meeting of new people.
I’m excited about spring. Looking forward to finishing new baby stuff and getting my life – and home – ready for the new little one. New baby = new start.
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