I’ve done this post before
Seems to me I’ve done this post before. My cerclage was removed today, doc set my appt at a week but said “probably not”. As in, I’ll deliver before then. So we’re prepping. I won’t get everything done (not even close) but I’ll get the most important things done, and that’s really the key thing. I’m off to take it easy tonight, after last night’s contraction-fest.
Stay, baby, stay. Just two weeks more. At least.
Filed under Everyday Life | Comment (0)My most important job
I’m about to embark on my second phase of my most important job. If someone would have said, ten years ago, that I would consider this my most important job in the world, I’d have never believed them. Yes, my business is important, but I will have many clients – and my business will change vastly over the course of my career. But my work as a mother is paramount.
It’s thankless. Respectless, often, but never rewardless. It was impossible for me to imagine all of this. But I like the direction we’re going in.
I have just a few weeks left of pregnancy, but I’m relishing every moment.
Filed under Everyday Life | Comment (0)Loving these last weeks
Yes, it’s hard to get off the floor, and I am out of breath sometimes walking up stairs (not always) but I am relishing these last weeks. So special. I’m getting my full 40 weeks, I think.
It’s a little bit bittersweet, this time of my pregnancy. Knowing, realistically, this must be the last.
I was stopped by a woman in a cafe in Old Town who said “I must tell you, you look so full of life!” and indeed, that’s true, and I do feel that way. Pregnancy – despite the high risk nature – is good for me. It’s a good thing we did this again. I’m really soaking it up.
But it will end, and in some ways I am ready to get back to my old self. Not trying to rush things, either. Like I said, its bittersweet. I want to move on, I want to stay put. I want to savor, I want to meet our son. I am so incredibly blessed, so grateful for this that it makes my heart just want to burst.
Filed under Everyday Life | Comment (0)inspired by friends
So I’ve got these crafty friends, with their crafty blog and I’m inspired. Way inspired. I have to move this fashion/design/craft agenda ahead. Now they’re a bit on the super crafty (wreaths, etc.) idea than I am, I’m much more fashionista than craftista, but I love their mindset and the things they create (and their beautiful construction and craft of their items).
I know, I know, I have weeks ahead where I will not know what day it is, what time it is, when I ate last and be bleary eyed from two hours of sleep (maybe). But once that settles down and I figure out how to take care of a newborn – and another child – again, I will rebound. And there are SO many possibilities right now! I agreed to speak at a business FastTrac session about marketing next week (yes, indeed!) – it’s just a half hour, no prepwork really needed, and will be a fun, and good contact to maintain.
I also agreed to go to an evening session with the Arbonne folks to talk about biz development without parties and shows, something I’d like to explore. That’s Monday night. So populating my head with ever more ideas this weekend. Seeing two clients, and moving my agenda ahead, even if only in my head today.
I’m at home, sick, but resting. And I’m off to do some more of that right now.
Filed under Everyday Life | Comment (0)Things are changing
As I’m about to have this baby in just a few short weeks (five til my due date!) I am changing things. Finally. And what I want more than anything is time for my children, time to pursue the things – volunteer, handbag design, sewing and knitting – that make me truly happy. So that’s likely going to be for some time a part-time schedule.
I was inspired by this pattern reviewer’s review (and she’s a contest winner too!) She took interesting tops, with fabric from stash and crafted a great, hip, casual wardrobe. From her blog, I can see that she’s a prolific knitter too. I am taking up knitting again after the baby’s born – knitting can be a good thing to pick up and put down as I nurse a babe in the sling.
I think I can make more money working part time than full time (as a percentage of time-to-income ratio) and I am sure I want to spend more time with my children. Time to, say go to story time or nature time, or the zoo, or the museum, or take a language class or two with them. That’s truly what I want.
Filed under Everyday Life | Comment (0)Restless
Lately I have this boundless energy. I know this is perfectly normal – I’m supposed to get things done, feather my nest and get ready to be really tired and overworked the next several months. But I do feel this need to use this time to advance some of my agendae.
And of course, I need to savor. So, in fairly short order tomorrow night, I’m having hubby do pregnancy photos of me/us. I need to calm myself and take a few minutes (30) every day to just contemplate these last weeks of being pregnant. This won’t come again. And it’s so easy for me to just look ahead and plan ahead, without savoring this moment.
Sunday, Mother’s Day, and our anniversary, I need to plan something special for all of us, and especially, me. Planting in our garden, I think.
Filed under Everyday Life | Comment (0)Children are a blessing
I’ve been reading some horrific reports (and admittedly, it’s one or two friends who are posting) lately about children abused to death by their ‘parents’. I really must stop reading these things. I cannot believe parents treat their own (or adopted) children like this. I don’t know whether it’s my background, or the fact that I lost too many children (or just have some normal common sense and sanity) when I read these things, but it just daggers at my heart for these children.
Raising children tests everyone’s patience. I am not a perfect parent, and Lord knows I could do better, but I vowed never to hurt my child. It’s so easy to see, even when I yell at her, how this is damaging. Kids are so resilient, they survive despite horrific odds in these cases (some of them anyway). Ugh. it’s haunting me.
I just do not know how a mother can look at a child with that kind of hate and then do these things to him or her. Just don’t know! I’m so glad I’ve found LLL and the gentle philosophies that are helping me – and the mothers inspiring me – to be a good parent.
Ultimately, though my life is at a crossroads both personally and professionally, I will say this, my children are THE most important thing in my life. I am pretty well rounded in general – I have just enough healthy selfishness (I hope not too much) that I care for myself and don’t martyr myself for them, but that I recognize the gifts and blessings of them every time I look at them.
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